$1.00 Elephant Behind The Back

While rummaging through my wallet, I found all sort of stuffs which are so important to me that throwing them away would mean slicing off a part of me, a very important part of my past which defines me as I am now, and who knows, will define the future me as well. There was the small plastic pouch with the tissue papers neatly folded, with my friends' signatures. We scribbled our signatures on those tissue papers when we were together in our favorite place in Legazpi City. It is a small and cozy Chinese restaurant where the foods are great and as well as cheap. Such memory.

But the thing that brings back a lot of happy memories is the $1 USD neatly folded so it looked like an elephant. It was so perfectly folded so that the "Illuminati" symbol accidentally became the eyes of the elephant. Nice right? And the other interesting thing about that is that, it was folded by a very good friend behind his back, without looking at it, just feeling it while he folded it to that perfect elephant dollar.


In Summer of 2007, students from Garfield High School in Seattle, WA went to our University as part of their mission to impart technology. The organization's name is Global Technology Academy. Well, it was a very memorable experience. I volunteered to be an exchange student, to body up with one of their students as well. My brother's name is Conor McBride, a tall guy with curly golden hair and deep eyes. He's so techy and kind, and really have a lot of stories to tell. The 1$ bill was his. While the one who did the folding is his colleague, Sam Levine. Ah, the most intelligent and full of humor guy. We communicate with each other through Facebook and Email as well.

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Rain

It's already Summer here in the Philippines. But one lazy and usual afternoon, while waiting for our service in the park, an everyday routine, the rain suddenly pour down. Even when were on our way to the site in the company bus, the rain was till pouring down. I don't know how many times I said this, but I love the rain.

That rain the other day in particular made me think of something memorable. It has a distinct smell. I opened the window on my side, and I did smell the rain. It's like the odor of a freshly cut tree. I can vividly see in my mind our small property in one of the forest in my hometown, where we would usually spend time with our father, bonding with him, as he's the one taking care of it from time to time. I could see the trees with their sap flowing freely whenever the Bolo hits their trunk, flowing to the ground. As we let them down to dry under the sun.


I can see as well in my mind the dry rivers snaking through our parcel of land, all the way from the perfect coned Mayon Volcano. The stones, small and big alike looked ancient. They're still on the state of unbecoming. Mosses all over some of them. Ferns protruding from the banks. Their hairy young shoots looks very much attractive and inviting. The dry sands are so good to lie on, warmed by the day's sunshine. But one thing I do not dare do is wander and look under stones, fearing that snakes might be lurking from somewhere.



Looking around you will see the sun's rays piercing through the overgrowth, through the trees, golden sunset rays. Owls and other birds are singing in chorus, as if challenging the other. (Sigh..)


Ah, childhood memories.. How I wish they're within grasp all the time...

Century Tuna - Superbods

Century Tuna - Superbods

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The brother of a friend and colleague of mine is joining this competition and I believe that he deserves to win, so I am posting this here as a way to express my support.

One view will be one vote for him. I thank you all in advance!

When Can One Say That He's Not Gay?

I had this experience when I began to ask myself that question, when can one say that he's not gay. A networking page, the profle picture is the sexiest that he can appear, a photo album which all the pictures are nude men, groups they're affiliated are all gay / gay oriented groups, in a relationship with a gay.

It's just like bullshit that he will say that he's not gay. What a crap! Am I really afflicted by such worse idiocy, that I will not connect things in such logical sense? A logic that will point to none other than the fact that he's gay. Duh!

Maybe this is just caused by some sleep deprivation or something. Maybe from stress or blemish from some "selfish, imbecile, and good-for-nothing" inklings.

***Sigh*** -- take note, a long sigh.

I got to sleep.

When your faithfulness is being challenged...

Sometimes, we meet people whom we never know will be an important factor in the continuance of our existence. People, whom we met in a very unusual place, to whom we fell into, almost unexpectedly, and suddenly, we just found out that we can't live without that person. But since you met that person in that very unsusual place, you won't easily believe the things that he will tell you, though you know inside you that he is sincere and that he cares and needs you as much as you cared and needed him. You will exchange "I love you"s and know within yourself that you are sincere with that love and that he too feels the same thing for you. Yet, we sometimes cannot escape from destiny's claws, that she will challenge us, to prove our worth. But even though things and circumstances say that he is not serious, still you hold on to his words that he love you, and then just try to console yourself with things and thoughts like, "he was just busy", "he was sick", or "i am just becoming too possessive and paranoial". Still, we continue to love him despite of the misgivings and "he continue to disregard me" thoughts, almost unselfishly. And sooner, it will be known to us, that our sacrifices and waiting were not in vain, for our thoughts are true, and that we were ableto hold on. Then total satisfaction, and unfathomable happiness brought about by a faithful love,

will soon follow...

¡Soy tanto en amor con usted mi bebé!

¡Te quiero!

Keno - A Friend Lyrics

I've still been searching
And long have I waited
For someone to like me as me
To laugh with
To cry with
To be just beside with
A friend that's who I need

To fight with
Make up with
To know that you need them
Believing that they need you, too
To walk hand in hand with
To argue to talk with
A friend that's who I need

And even though
I make mistakes
And never do anything right
A smile, a hug
Can change all that
And everything will be alright

Someone who'll share all my dreams and ambitions
Someone who'll love me as me
I need this person
Someone to rely on
A friend that's who I need

A friend that's who I need

This is my all time favorite song. When I was in high school, i lived in a dormitory in an all-boys school, and it is really very lonely there at first, but fortunately, I was able to cope up with the loneliness later on. And considering the discriminations that I get from my colleagues, add up to that loneliness which almost engulfed my being, and almost became hate. Also, the real me, has been my problem too. Not so many were able to accept me as who I am (the usual) and it add up to that heap of daunting experiences and feelings. So, during those times, this song really touched my heart and my being, and now, it still does. I can say that I am still looking for that Adam who will accept me as who I am. I had encountered many, unfortunately, they are not my Adams. I am hoping that I finally find the right one for me. So that, I may stop singing this song, though I have no intentions of doing so. I believe, that our everyday life is a constant search for the perfect thing, for the perfect experience, a state of bliss.

Where are you?

¿Dónde está Usted?

¿Dónde?

Sorry, I Love You: Nun-yi-kkot (SnowFlower)

Nunye Ggot Lyrics (Sorry, I love you OST / MISA)

Onu-sae ki-ro-jin ku-rim-ja-rul tta-ra-so
Ttag-gom-i-jin o-tumsogul kudae-wa kotgu inneyo
Sonul machujapgo ku-onjae-kkajirado
Hamkke-in-nun gol manuro
Nunmuri nanungolyo

Parami chara-wochinun mankum
Kyowurun kag-ga-wo oneyo
Chogumsshik i-gori guwiru
Kudae-rul ponae-yahaet-don kyejori uneyo

Chigum orhae-yi chonnung-golchul parapabo
Hamkke innu-nisungane
Nae-modungol dangshingge jugoshipo
Iron gasume kudae-ranayo
Yakhagiman han naega ani-eyo
Irohke gudael sarang-hanun-dae
Kujo nae-mami i-rolppunin-gojyo

Ku-dae-gyo-chi-ramyon
tto oddoni-ri-radu
halsu-i-ssul-komman gata / kuron gipumi tuneyo
unuri jinago ddo-onjegga-jirado
uri sarang-yong-won-hagil
Gido hanu-i-ssoyo

Parami naye chang-ul hun-dulgo
Odu-un pammajo kkae-umyon
Kudae apun giolmachodo
Nae-ga da chiwochulkkeyo
Hwanhan ku misoro

Kkutobshi nae-rinun sae-hayan nunggut-dulro
Uri koddon i koriga
Onu-sae pyonhan gotdo morununche
Hwanhan bichuro mulduro-kayo
Nugungal wihyae nan sara-gan-nayo
Mu-woshidul da hae-chugo shipun
Irol-ke sa-rangin-jul pwae-wossoyo

Hung-shi gudae-in-nun gododin-ji arat-damyon
Kyo-ulpam pyori dwae gu-dael bicho-ssul-tende
Utdon naldo nun-mure jochodon sulpun bamedo
Onjena gu onjena
Gyote issol-kkeyo

Chigum orhae-yi chonnung-golchul parapomyon
Hamkke innu-nisun-gane
Nae-modungol dangshinke chugoshipo
Iron gasume kudae-ranayo
Ul-ji-marayo
narul parapwayo
gucho gudaeye gyoteso
hamkke itgo shipun mam ppunirago
tashin kudael nohchi anhulkkeyo

kkutobshi nae-rimyo uril kamssa-on
korigadulkhan nunkotsokeso
kudaewa naegasume chogumsshik
jakun chu-o-gul kurineyo
yongwanhi naegyote kudae issoyo

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SnowFlower
English Translation by: Jungie (from www.aheeyah.com)

Suddenly as I followed your growing shadow
I was walking with you inside darkness.

As we hold hands until whenever that might be
Just being together makes me cry.

As the wind becomes colder, winter comes closer.
Little by little, on this path, comes the season when I had to let you go.

As I watch the first snowflowers of this year right now,
In this moment that we share together, I want to give you my all.
Do you know of my heart?

I wasn’t always so weak, I’m loving you like this but
that’s all my heart can do.

If I was by your side, no matter what the task may be
I feel as if I can do it. I get that feeling.

When the wind rattles my window and even the dark night awakens,
I’ll erase even all your painful memories.
With that bright smile.

With these white snowflowers falling endlessly,
The sidewalk that we are walking on glows with a bright light,
without even knowing that it’s changed.

Have I lived on for someone else?
Wanting to do everything for them, I learned that that was love.

If by chance I knew where you were,
I would’ve become a star in the winter sky and shined on you.

Even on days when you laugh and sad nights that are damp with tears,
I’ll be by yourside always, whenever that may be.

As I watch the first snowflowers of this year right now,
In this moment that we share together, I want to give you my all.
Do you know of my heart?

Don’t cry, look at me.
All I want to do is be together with you by your side.
I won’t let you go this time.

Inside the snowflowers that fill this path and shower on us endlessly,
little by little, small memories are being drawn inside our hearts
Forever by my side you are there.